The Lake of Fire

From My Journal

Sunday, June 26, 1955

We ate dinner with Maw Maw Wilson after church today.  It was delicious.  We had pork roast, boiled potatoes, green beans with bacon & onions, corn on the cob, slaw, sliced tomatoes and biscuits and gravy.  (Maw Maw's gravy is SO good!).  Then we had apple pie with vanilla ice cream on it for dessert.  I love Maw Maw's pies.  Nobody anywhere makes pies as good as she does.

I am disgusted with the church people!  Wish they would leave me alone!  I can't get saved and that's all there is TO it!  When Brother Crowley gave the invitation today, Miss Ora came down from the choir and talked and talked to me about getting saved.  Everybody was looking at me and it was SO embarrassing!  

I used to like "Just As I Am," but now I hate to hear it because I'm always afraid somebody like Miss Ora will come and talk to me in front of everybody.  Brother Crowley said if a person doesn't come forward and get saved, they are low down rotten sinners and will burn forever and ever in the lake of fire.  I haven't done awful things.  But they make me feel like I have.  I used to love going to church, and I still would if they didn't keep embarrassing me and trying to get me saved all the time.